At the end of last year I picked up and read Special Delivery (Heidi Cullinan). While I rated this book highly (five stars), it did make me feel...uncomfortable in places.
Special Delivery is the story of Sam...and Mitch, but mostly Sam :) It covers a lot of ground, not just in terms of distance but also in emotional development of the individual characters and their relationship. It was not...an easy book to read. Not with respect to the author's writing style, which was effortless, but in terms of certain choices Sam made throughout the book. Those choices had me in fear of Sam's well-being, both emotional and physical, and left me...uncomfortable. I guess what I'm trying to say is...what works for some people (sexually) doesn't work for others. And what works for Sam, doesn't work for me. But this book allowed me to realize that.
However, saying all of the above doesn't mean that I can't...accept (I'm not sure I'll ever be able to understand as...I'm just not wired that way :) that it works for Sam..and I'm sure for others. Hmmm. I watched a news item earlier this evening on the...'amendment' (if one can call it that) of one particular word in the Mark Twain classic Huckleberry Finn. One person interviewed said that the word should remain because it made people uncomfortable, and without disturbing the the equilibrium there will be no growth. And I think that's how I view Special Delivery.Finding a book uncomfortable can be a good thing as it allow me to...fill in part of the map that is me. A part of me that was...previously unknown. As in, what I like or don't like. What works for me. If that makes sense? The bottom line is that Special Delivery was a book that really made me think. And I think everyone once in a while it's good to read such books. So, will I be reading the indirect sequel to Special Delivery - Double-Blind? Why yes, I think I will *grin*
So, what was the last book that you read that made you...uncomfortable?