20 March 2011

Pushing Water

There are days when it honestly feels like I am pushing water. Uphill. With my bare hands. Today has been one such day. I don't know why...I just feel overwhelmed and...like I could cry until I have no more tears. The more I try and do the less I seem to accomplish. My weekends just don't feel long enough. I feel like I barely scratch the surface and then another week dawns and I'm left scrambling.

As I mentioned in (Re-)Release, I've been arguing with myself over a rather big (family-specific) decision. And I've reached a decision...which is right for me. And I promise I will explain rather that write cryptic sentences *grin* But...I think I need to be in a slightly better place to write such a post...and ATM all I want to do is curl up in bed with Jordan Castillo Price's GhosTV. So that is what I'm going to do. I'm sorry I haven't been online, haven't visited. I will. I just need to find the balance I seem to have lost. And in the interim, I would like to introduce you to one of my favourite songs. It's the perfect song on such days.


  1. ((Hugs))... hope all is better soon.

  2. Take care of yourself Orannia, and take your time. Enjoy JCP.

  3. *BIG HUG* Enjoy the GhosTV immersion and let the world take care of itself for a while...

    My favorite song called "Don't Give Up"...

  4. ((((hugs)))) Take care, honey!

  5. *hugs* I'm sending good thoughts your way, hon.

  6. Hang in there, sweetie!

    Yes, that song is a really special one (and has personal significance for me, too.)

    Glad you're treating yourself good, and snuggling up with Vic and Jacob.

    I hear ya, with trying to just tread water. We'll be here waiting, and until then, we always have goodreads. ;-)


  7. Sometimes, when I feel like that, I find I'm trying to make everyone happy but myself. When I define what I care about and focus on that, it gets easier. Hope you're able to take a break and regroup, that feeling sucks.

  8. I know that feeling. Hang in there and soon better things will come!

  9. Mariana - thank you :)

    Hilcia - many thanks. *deep breath* Unfortunately, I've had to put JCP down, but only until the weekend, and then Vic, Jacob & I are back together...looking for messages in oatmeal *grin*

    Janna - many thanks sweetie :)

    Chris - thank you. Ohhh, strong lyrics on that song!

  10. Eyre - thank you. Hope all is well with you this week?

    Renee - many thanks. And yes to GoodReads. It seems...less daunting (if that makes sense).

    Meoskop - that's it. I've been trying and trying to make everyone happy, fix everything...and I've just realized I can't do it any more. Because I'm not happy. And I guess my decision is doing...just like you said...define what I care about and focus on that. But...it's not going to be easy, as I discovered today. Because people think I should keep...doing what I'm doing. But I know how I feel now, so I'm going to stand firm. Or at least try :) Thank you. *hugs*

    heidenkind - many thanks. Working on it :)

  11. It's both a sad and a hopeful song, isn't it?

  12. Chris - yes. Makes it more real.